Until I learned to take more responsibility for my own actions, I found myself always second to the men in my life. I was surrounded by male bosses from early on. Both my birth and step-fathers owned and ran companies which put them in the habit of dictating how life should be lived from the moment you woke up in the morning and that ought to be bright and early they insisted! I clearly had something to learn about my own male energy from men in positions of power. Whether in love or in work, the best of men wanted me by their side supporting and respecting them, but they did not necessarily turn around to be supportive and respectful of me. Eventually after much blaming of the men for my heartache and loss of self-esteem, I realized I should look more closely at the philosophical mirror. What did this mirror reflect back about my own male energy? On the positive side, I saw confidence, freedom, and independence. On the negative side, I saw emotional selfishness. So I said to myself, ok it is time for me to take charge of my own male energy, and to quit being so emotionally self-centered. As soon I made this affirmation to myself, miraculously all the men in life from fathers, to bosses, to partners started to be supportive and respectful towards me and they remain so to this day.
Now that I’ve achieved that much, I’m asking myself why I haven’t become a boss IF I have had so many bosses in my immediate mirror? At 42, many of my friends with similar education and experience to myself are in positions of authority. Upon reflection, I realize that the mirror shows you what you are capable of becoming but equally as much shows you what you might want to avoid becoming. I’ve observed that being a boss is not as wonderful as it might seem. Your business becomes like your child and you must mind it constantly. The burdens of overheads, employee reliability, and financial sustainability weigh on business owners and bosses greatly. For many years, I considered running my own creative and intuitive arts center, but then with meditation on the Emperor I realized I could do my own creative and independent work without the burdens. As a tarot reader and teacher for example, I am happy enough renting space for my work in direct correlation to client demand so there is never a pressure of overheads.
So when you draw the Emperor card, examine your own male energy and make an affirmation of how you would like to confidently move forward and behold the emperor in yourself!